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Lyrically I was empty.

 

From an early age I was sucked into this world

like a vacuum sucking dirt off of a carpeted floor,

been mixed in rocks, dirt & the perversion of other men’s thoughts

tossed around by confusion bounced back with an illusion

that I could some day never be the person I desired to be.

 

Myself.

All by myself I allowed these senseless thoughts

crush all of my dreams to aspire & be all I can be,

stepped aside & let someone else paint a dark, diluted picture of my destiny.

 

I cant.

I can not allow myself to fear what I can achieve,

after living my life molded by me to not fear anyone or anything.

Now I have decided that I am tired of being this pessimistic woman with a hard inner being.

Toughened by the fact that love has betrayed my mind

And allowed me to see the soul of a monster who was in some way injected in me

By the forces of things that are not of thee.

Up above I mean.

 

So just love me.

Love me the way people love their Queen,

the way a mother loves her child or at least that’s the way its suppose to be.

Because I regret the days when I didn’t love me

where I hated me instead of hating the fact that I hated at all,

Fell from the sky from a holy grace & torn down

by treating others how I wanted to be treated but instead being shut down.

 

I won’t.

I will not be consumed by how people feel & like a thief in the night

let them steal my right to be able to express how I feel.

 

I will be me till the day that I gracefully pass leaving this earth to go up with

My dad, My Father, My Friend, My Creator.

I will fight every battle thrown at my hands

Jump over every obstacle & follow his plan

I will make it to heaven!

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